Affirmation 4

Here I mean to firmly affirm, and not mope around any more.
I'm tired of stressing and obsessing. It doesn't matter what people do.
It seems like there's a lot of drifting apart in a lot of these poems,
and everyone knowing one another less well. I'm going to know people
more. I'm going to start to feel tougher. Winter won't be
kicking my shins this time around. Once I feel tougher,
I'll be tougher. I'll wrest my life from the hands of depression.
I'll clean my humidifier and keep my room nice.
Once I'm tougher, I'll find some people, and I'll get to know them.
Then I'll find the people I already knew, and I'll know them more,
too. These are not resolutions. Resolutions are what you break.
This is just some stuff that's going to happen.

I'll bake kouign amann, and the butter won't crack the dough
when I'm rolling it out and folding it. Some of the people I know
and I will draw comics together. Some of the people I know
and I will keep our eyes on the police. In the morning
I will warm up my lower register, and then I will find the courage
to fearlessly summon the tenor, even though everyone
at the bus stop below my window can hear me.